Taking Me Back

I confronted Naysayer #1 and Naysayer #2. I couldn't feel better. Seriously, what a weight lifted off my shoulders. I did it for two reasons - one, they would never know this bothered me and I didn't want it hanging over me and/or us. Two, gosh darn it the judging and cynicism must end! Naysayer #1 was very apologetic and excused it with her own drama. Understandable.

Naysayer #2 didn't think I was serious when I told her it bothered me. Her excuse was why would it matter to me what she thought of my relationship. Not getting it, I had to explain to her, that I don't care what she thinks about it but I also don't need to hear any negativity about something wonderful for me.

Drama one down...two more to go!

I had some serious family drama over the past two days. To make the story short, I have two cell phones on my one T-Mobile account. One for me and the other for my brother. My 27 year old brother! This boy doesn't know what a bill looks like to save his life. I am so not joking. I blame his mother and then I blame me. Because I've had his cell phone on my account for the past six years. Uhm hmm. We used to have a great pay-me-back schedule. He gave the cash to my mom and she would transfer money into my bank account. Why the cash to her? Because the fool doesn't even have a bank account! Look out the window - see that bum out there? That's him, my brother, except add a part time job to his butt, a car, a roof over his head and everything handed to him and that's my brother!

Back to the drama...for the past eight months he hasn't paid me a cent. I've been covering his $50 portion of the bill on my own. I didn't mind the first couple of months because I could definitely afford it and he is my brother. Then, the other day I realized that he doesn't even attempt to tell me he cannot afford it, it's like he knows I'll pay for it and his phone will always work.

So, when I heard he went and bought a new cell phone for $200, I knew I was being bamboozled. How do you buy a new phone and know you owe the month to month charges for it to keep working? I confronted him and he told me all he could do was $50. Tell that to T-Mobile and they cut your service off. Guess what I had to do? Uh huh - cut. it. off.

I figure he is well damn old enough to go get his own account and see what a bill looks like for once.

Last piece of drama...I feel like whatever happens with Cowboy is somewhat of my problem as well. He had some serious hella family drama last night. It made my bum brother look like cake. My poor boyfriend has been caught in the middle of a bitter, bitter and serious argument between his parents. He in only involved because it affects his relationship with both of them and one of his brothers. I hate to hear him talk about it because there is nothing I can do to help.

Naturally, all I could do was listen. Once I hung up with him, I tried to fall asleep. I kept waking up at odd hours of the night. I couldn't shake the feeling that there has to be something that I can do. Something. That thought alone is stress.

In other news, I decided to take back me and my mornings. I'm a morning gal and lately, with the new job came the come into the office when you please boss. Yeah, how lucky am I? I still need to put in the hours, but she is all about get here at 8, 9 or 10. Holla. With that came me being the laziest bum ever and staying in my bed up until whenever I wanted to roll out, which always happened at 8:10. Meaning, all I was doing was waking, showering, getting ready for work and then getting to work.

No way, Jose. I'm an early bird do goer and like an 8 - 5 workday. This morning, I woke at 6:40. Ran, ate, watch the news, shower, get ready, go to work. All in taking my sweet time and never rushed looking at the clock. I was at work at 8:05. Niiiice.

Yep, I'm taking me back. One day & morning at a time.