I think I'd be much happier working at J.Crew* right now than the job that I have. You know, the one that I used to love so much.
Driving to the office is a pain in my ass. I put up with other cars every day to only arrive to an office where the moral is so low. I spend 75% of my time reading blogs and searching for a new job.
It's like last summer, but there's no television and I have to be present at the office. And y'all remember last summer? Lots of interviews and lots of rejection.
I hate the official standardized rejection letter. I take that back, it really isn't like last summer so much as it's like that time in high school - when I'd run home to check the mailbox for acceptance letters from colleges. Only to get rejected.
You get the mail. You see the letter. You automatically know the news ain't good because the envelope is so thin. You read it anyway. Shit, you may be crazy like me, and read it more than twice. Because? The words on the paper may have rearranged themselves or you may have read it completely wrong (because 3rd grade reading class didn't work) and you were accepted. Yah!
Not so much.
Anyway, I hate those f*%&ing letters. I do.
More than those letters, I hate going to work. I don't know why I bother. I'm not allowed in any of the super secret NYC headquarter conference calls or meetings. They are so special.
Each time they have one, one thought enters my mind: I had an offer and I don't anymore. How the F did I have a New York city offer and I'm not moving to New York City? How the F?
And then the scary me comes out and its all panic. Panic that I won't have a job lined up or GASP! even worse I won't have a job lined up sooner than the end date - which is what I prefer.
I seriously prefer to be out of there by next week. That ain't happening.
It's like I told Bev, I'd much rather be a nanny to someone's brat child than spend another day at my office.
Hmm...maybe I should start the hunt for that job. Surely, it's better than this.
*I thought I'd be happier at the GAP, but then I was in the mall today and I just covet everything in the J.Crew windows and on their manequins. Have you been there, lately? It's a lot of goodies up in there.