I need one more rant and I swear after this one if you hear me obsessing over this situation once more - just yell at me. Do something to make me stop. I promise this is the last time I will over-analyze this situation until that kiss happens. (believe me, it's happening)
But over-analyzing is part of the job, right? When Someone created crushes - She also created the agony that comes along with it, no? And it's part of our job as the females in the situation to over-analyze.
Friday night keeps popping into my head, over and over again. It's like I hit the repeat button on the track. Every A, B, C, and D scenario comes up and is meticulously thought about again, and again. And again.
I'm going to drive myself crazy. After I drive my friends crazy. Friends - you guys can tell me to shut it up at any time from here on out. But first, I have a theory.
After all my thinking and not working today, I came to this conclusion: It's partly my fault that he didn't go in for the kiss.
See, I'm a very friendly person at the bar. I'll talk to anyone. Sometimes to my own detriment. You need a wingwoman - I'm there for you. I'll take care of your goal's friend that needs entertaining while you try to hook up at the bar.
Friday night - I spoke to a lot of people. Mainly, men. Cute ones, too. And when I'm friendly, I'm Friendly. I get all touchy touchy and giggly and start buying people drinks (shots). It's a problem. Especially when the wrong guy is barking up my nice tree because I'll be stuck in a conversation forever because I cannot be the that rude girl at the bar telling a boy to get lost.
There have been nights when I will warn my friends - if they see me being nice to the wrong type - COME RESCUE ME.
Nobody rescued me Friday. So, #2 witnessed my friendliness.
It hit me today:
I don't think he went in for the kiss because he saw me being flirty and nice to a lot of people. So when it came down to me being that way with him, he didn't think it anything special or noteworthy.
That's my theory. I'm sticking to it.
And I swear we are not discussing #2 until something concrete happens.