One thing is for sure: I am going to Chicago.
I decided to stop calling, texting, and emailing Cupcake. It is only stressing me out.
And do I need her for this trip?
I can do it alone. The only upset will be paying the full hotel bill.
But it can be done.
So why am I stressing?
I did San Francisco on my own for one day.
I've done Houston, Lubbock, and Austin on my own. Granted, those were business trips, but still I was eating dinners and taking little touring trips on my own.
If I make it to Chicago alone, it will be a challenge, because I do want to hit some bars. Other than that, it's all about shopping and sightseeing. Those can be done solo, right?
And if she does come along...
I am taking my running shoes and clothes. Each morning I'm running that lake path and taking in the city morning hustle and bustle (my fave), doing my own thing, to have the time to me and my favorite city. To sit along the lakeshore. Enjoy the views. Eat at any of the diners. Take in a non-coffee drink at a cafe. To sit amongst the city grit in a park. Read. People watch. Enjoy the pre-Fall crisp in the air. To have my calm before meeting back up with her.
(note: I plan all on all that whether or not she is with me)
When we get back? A number will be erased from my phone. For the first time ever.